A Better Update

It would figure that after posting that last entry things would simmer down.

I spent a while just being pissed and stressed and upset because, you know, life's shit sometimes. I calmed down after a long while of trying to do research and stuff (and figuring out what kind of debt those medical bills would put me at: bad idea!); my ma asked me what was wrong because she saw I was upset and I just told her stress (I was still trying to figure things out), so she told me if it was financial they would help me out. Later, after she spoke with my pops and he told her about the hospital calling, she told me not to worry about it that workers comp always tries to deny claims and not to pay anything. So, after a few more phone calls, I guess I have to call the workers comp board and get some form or another...it's written on something downstairs...and go from there. She said if that doesn't work we'll get a lawyer.

So...I'm feeling largely better on all of that. Not as stressed, at the very least. Not feeling as if my life is falling apart completely. It still needs to be addressed and everything, but, at least I'm not stuck with those bills on top of what else I owe. Speaking of which...I still need to find a co-signer for a loan. Apparently sometimes credit card companies will negotiate for less if you can pay up front, which might be something I'll look into. I might still need a loan, but at least it would be for less.

I have a few days off in a row the week following Thanksgiving so I think I might try and plan a trip to Syracuse. Try and finally get my rent deposit back. Just need to get a hold of a couple people before I can plan that.

The ACD that had been on my mind for a while seems to have been adopted, which is good! I had serious doubts it would have worked anyways, and it's really probably just as well while I get certain other things sorted out.

Otherwise...tomorrow I'll finally be ordering a new pair of earphones: it's been nearly unbearable having to do without the past several days! I don't do well without earphones apparently...

And I just realized how horribly I'm doing at writing a novel this month. November 20 and I'm still at less than a thousand words. Can you tell I haven't been good about writing it? I would have worked on it lately but, I'm going to go ahead and blame the lack of earphones on that one.

Just the other day this would have been fairly upbeat...

Wow, it's been more than a month since my last entry...

I was going to make this the other day, but, this works.

Uhm...that little crisis of mine is still sticking around and now it's just all over the place. I honestly don't know what's going on there. I seriously think I just need to go and see a career counselor and get that shit figured out.

Otherwise...work hasn't really been that bad lately. I think it's getting better, actually. I think it's a combination of: more experience, having a salon manager (who, personally, I like), and the co-worker who gave me the most grief is no longer there. The work environment's improved I think, and my skills have improved as well as having people who will actually help me out when I need it with a dog -- I just have to work on actually asking, because I don't always do that.

I keep getting asked if I plan on going to academy to be a groomer. I don't know if that's just something they encourage all bathers to do or if they actually think I'm good enough and could be a good groomer...I don't know. I've thought about it I guess, given it thought at least, but I don't really know. I'm leaning towards no because I don't know as I want to commit to it for at least two years...but at the same time my head's telling me: full-time hours, commission, solid work. You know, stuff like that. My head is apparently as confused as I am.

Money situation...I need new work boots, probably new sneakers, I need new headphones/earphones, my Jeep's due for an inspection next month and needs work. Oh yea, there's Christmas too -- a holiday I'm beginning to feel neutral about at best. There's also that whole "I want a second dog" deal. I feel like I'm barely making payments on my credit cards (I only have two) and my truck payment with a little to spare. I feel like I need to get as many hours as I can, even if my schedule is shit, otherwise I'll be fucked. I'm still owed $400 and need at least an oil change on my Jeep before I can go up to get it -- and hopefully I won't have to take the people to small claims. Let's see...what else...I know Jin's due for her yearly and her rabies the beginning of 2011 and next year we're beginning the senior wellness stuff, so we'll see how much that is. Oh, yea, and I found out when I got home today that apparently workers comp is denying payment on the medical bills I accrued one Friday back in August because it's medical-related and not work-related.

I'm...pissed. I'm upset. I have no idea where things are going right now. I can't fucking afford those bills and if I have to fight it legally I don't think I could afford that either. I have to call the hospital: they gave a number to call so I can talk to their workers comp advisor. After fighting all fucking year to avoid bankruptcy I might have to file for it anyways. At fucking 22!

Life's just great...

To think I was on my way home today (it was a pretty good day, too -- I had my favorite St Bernard in for a bath and brush) thinking about an ACD at the SPCA and wondering if I should just give it a shot, see if they still do trials and see if I can convince my ma to give a trial run to see if an ACD could work in the situation after all. To think...

Something tells me my life's falling apart instead...again this year. It was just starting to fucking stabilize too.

I also forgot my iPod at work earlier so I have to drive back up there to pick it up.